On being CEO

I'm turning 28 on Sunday. I like how my life is right now. I'm incorporating Project Vanity, our first round of investments are in the bank, and the company has so many exciting activities lined up in the next few months. It feels surreal, unreal. Just last October I didn't know what I was going to do exactly and now everything - everything - is in motion.

There are two things I find difficult to deal with though. One is the incredible amount of pressure I am under right now. Failure is obviously not an option. Before, I made money off Project Vanity casually, but now I have investors and salaries to think of. The balance I always talk about when I come out with content? Imagine lots of different voices and sponsors now being considered in the equation. I don't want Project Vanity to be just another beauty website. I want it to be the best I can make it, and to do well by you, Reader.

The second thing that is killing me is the doubt. I don't like to think about it too much, but I don't know for sure if my company will ever be anything. Heck, I don't know if I'm equipped with the skills to make my vision come true. I have business advisors, of course, and they will keep me from making too many mistakes. But at the back of my head I'm thinking...am I really built to be an entrepreneur? Can I do this?

I don't think anybody enjoys being in a position where one can't leave without being unmasked. That is where I am right now. 

I'm not complaining, however. It's tough but I love every minute of what I'm doing right now. Finally, I'm working for my very own company! All of my efforts go to building something of mine. I'm surrounded by great people who believe in what Project Vanity stands for and what it can become - people who believe in me. 

That is all I need for now. ^_^ Alright, I'm off to pitch! Wish me luck!

Have you been doing anything that scares you lately?